It was a friend of mine, we had cuddled a little and I feel like that might’ve led him on. I didn’t say no explicitly but I thought trying to push him off would’ve been enough. I had to throw away my bloodied underwear and my pjs. Even he admitted later that he should’ve stopped and apologised. I feel like in a way I led him on, sending mixed messages with all the play fighting and cuddling. I feel wrong, lost, and dirty